Sunday, April 18, 2010

Without Words

I've been wondering lately about love.

More specifically, I've been wondering how we feel love.

Lydia doesn't understand what I'm saying to her. I could talk to her about politics and she would smile and gurgle and coo.

I could talk to her about cancer. Or taxes. Or the joys of grocery shopping. Still she would smile.

So when I tell her I love her, does it mean anything to her?

Can she feel love?

The other night I asked Brian about this. "Does Lydia know we love her?" I said.

He said that her spirit can feel and recognize love, that it's something her spirit knew even before she came to this earth. He said that when I feel love from her or when she feels love from me, it's our spirits communicating.

Maybe that's why babies are so special. Because we feel it deep down, without words.

And of all the senses, I think feeling is best.


Leslie said...

I don't think anyone could have said that more beautifully.

"Wuv. True Wuv." It is a spectacular thing. And it is amazing how you can't even describe it. Especially the love you feel for your children. They are a part of you.

Thank you for your thoughts!

Kimba said...

I totally agree, and agree with Leslie. I knew I would love Wyatt, but I can't believe how much I love him, and that it continues to grow. I think the hardest thing for me now is to hear stories of people who don't love for or care for their children, or worse, do terrible things to them. It's absolutely inconceivable to me. (inconceivable...another princess bridge shout out!)

I've always remembered that scene in Three Men and a Baby (loved that movie growing up!) where Peter is reading some magazine article to the baby, and Jack is asking him why he's reading that to a baby. He says it doesn't matter what he reads, it's the tone of voice he uses. I think that's so true, and that no matter what you're saying to her, your tone conveys so much. And she knows you love her.

Nick and Stacy Stevens said...

It's amazing to me that I can love Amelia as much as I do. It never ends. Every morning when I go get her out of bed she has the biggest smile on her face. I know she loves me. I fall in love with her more and more everyday. I can't imagine life without her now.

sgatherum said...

That's funny, I smile, gurgle and coo whenever I talk about taxes too. I think Lydia and I have something in common. However it happens, I know they can feel your love. It is absolutely the best when you have those moments of unrestrained love between you and your child. Hey, were moving back to Oregon in three weeks.

Nana said...

Oh, Abby, what beautiful lilacs against the blue sky. Sweet thoughts on love. I would agree with you and Brian. Thanks for sharing. Thanks for the deep love you both share with Lydia. Thanks for the MANY IMPORTANT...DEEP DOWN IMPORTANT things you do EVERY day for yourselves, each other and for Lydia.