-On Being a World
The thought that preoccupies my mind is this: where is the best place for my child to sleep?
And seriously. Where SHOULD she sleep?
My two options are as follows:
1. In a bassinet near our bed.
2. In her crib in her nursery.
I know people are going to say I should go with my instincts and do what feels right, which is excellent advise, but in the end, I'm not getting a whole lot of information. I suppose what I'm looking for is someone to tell me what they think of me putting my days-old, precious angel down the hall in her own crib to sleep. We're talking alone. In her own room. With her own stuff. What have you moms done? What has worked best for you, your partner, and your baby?
I want to get her started off in her own room. There will be less transitioning for her and for all of us. Not to mention more sleep for the dad who gets to pay for all the diapers.
Call me a mean mom if you must, and then, when you are done, tell me what you think of my decision.
I'm tough. Because mean moms have to be.
On Being A World (or something like one)
It occurred to me the other day that I am a small planet, maybe a bio dome, perhaps a greenhouse. It hit me that if I don't live, neither does my baby.
If I don't breath, have a beating heart, have neurons transmitting and myelin sheaths shooting, my baby doesn't make it. How many small miracles are happening every second to keep me alive, I wonder. And now they are happening for two.
I am a world. A big dumb, blundering, world. I don't control the science of it. I don't tell my body to work, to pump, to build or create.
My body is a house, a house for two souls and a house for miracles.
And I do believe I know where these miracles come from:
He gave me my eyes that I might see
The color of butterfly wings.
He gave my my ears that I might hear
The magical sound of things.
He gave me my life, my mind, my heart;
I thank Him reverently
For all his creations,
Of which I'm a part.
I know Heavenly Father loves me.
And that goes for all y'all.
If you'd like to hear the whole song, this is a beautiful video with music by Amy Gileadi.